Bestselling author Sarah Fine presents an intense standalone novel sure to thrill new adult romance readers everywhere.
When passion takes on a dangerous edge…
Nessa Cavanaugh, psychology student, knows how to stay on an even keel. Despite the urging of her mother and her academic advisor to get a life and have some fun, āall work and no playā sums up her plan to survive her grueling internship year at a childrenās hospital. She doesnāt want to end up like her father, whose constant ups and downs broke her family, and avoiding unnecessary emotional entanglements is a must.
Then she (literally) runs into Dr. Aron Lindstrom in the middle of her disastrous first day on the job. The attraction is instantāand terrifying. Nessa knows she should stay awayāespecially when she finds out he has a reputation for being a playerābut Aron is brilliant, intense, and as sexy as they come. When he challenges her to take a chance on him, her plans to stay focused on work start to crumble.
But what begins as passion takes on a dangerous edge, becoming an emotional roller coaster thatās frighteningly familiar. As things spiral out of control, Nessa must decide whether she should hold on for the ride or run ⦠even if it means leaving her heart behind.
**WARNING: This is a new adult novel and contains material which is sexual in nature. Content may not be suitable for readers under the age of 18.**
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Spiral
by Sarah Fine
Series
n/a; standalone
Genre
New Adult
Contemporary Romance
Publisher
Independent
Publication Date
2013
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SPIRAL
A Standalone Novel
Ā© 2013 Sarah Fine
CHAPTER ONE
Always do the thing that scares you. Thatās the way to break out of a cage of your own making. My father used to say that all the time. He died back when I was fifteen and left me with a lot of bad memories and a genetic dark cloud hanging over my head, but his mantraās what Iāve chosen to keep for myself. It gives me a bit of courage when I need it most.
Like right now.Ā
The automatic doors to the Pediatric Oncology unit swing wide, and I force myself not to hesitate on the threshold. I push back a stray tendril of hair that falls across my cheek again a second later. I wobble a bit on the heels I bought over the weekend in the hopes of looking professional ⦠and just a bit taller. I smooth my skirt and make sure the nametag that hangs from the lanyard around my neck is facing outward. Itās my first week of internshipāthe final year of training I need to get my PhD in clinical psychologyāand my first day on this rotation. My nametag is the only way I can prove Iām actually supposed to be here.Ā
Not that Psychology Intern is all that reassuring or impressive to anyone. But when the patientsā parents get too upset to reason with, the nurses call Psychology, and itās Friday at 5:26pm, so Iām it.Ā
I can hear the disgruntled father snarling from here. His voice is hoarse, like heās been at it for a while. And as I walk into the atrium, where colorful fish swim lazily around the circular aquarium at its center, I see him through the undulating plastic seaweed. Heās a big guy in a stained t-shirt, sporting a serious case of hat-hair. His face is flushed and his eyes are red.Ā
At the main desk, a plump, middle-aged nurse in lavender scrubs looks at me and raises her eyebrows. I walk over to her. āIām Nessa Cavenaugh,ā I say. āYou called for a psychology consult?ā
She folds her arms across her ample chest. āAnd like I told you on the phone, weāve got a parent and kid who need some help.ā She nods at the dad and gives me a get a move on kind of gesture.Ā
My cheeks grow warm as I head for the big, angry guy. I round the end of the huge aquarium as he grabs for the kid at his feet, a boy of about four or five. āYou will apologize to your brother, Shawn!ā he barks at the kid.
āNo!ā Shawn shrieks. His face is pink like his dadās. āWonāt!ā
āHeās sick, and you have to be nice!ā
āI donāt care!ā
The dad opens his mouth to reply, but then he sees me standing there. āWhat?ā It comes out rough, a challenge. He looks like a bull ready to charge.Ā
āMy nameās Nessa. Can I be helpful to you guys?ā I wish my voice wasnāt shaking.
The dad looks me over, and his eyes narrow as he reads my ID badge. āPsychology? They called the shrink? And not even a real one. Some high school kid!ā He rolls his eyes. āThanks a lot, Lynette!ā he calls over to the nurse.Ā
My cheeks have gone from warm to freaking five-alarm blaze. I know I look young, but Iām not that young. I stand up a little straighter, not that it helps much, seeing as Iām five-five in my shiny two-inch heels. āMaybe she thought you might want to talk? She knew you were having a hard time.ā
He rocks back. āA hard time?ā he whispers, his face twisting. āThatās what you call it? One kidās got cancer, the other oneās completely outta control, and their mother isāā He clenches his teeth.Ā
āNo, Iām sorryāI was onlyāā Making things worse.
He waves his arm, shooing me away. āLeave me alone. If you think this is just a hard time …ā Heās shaking his head as he grabs the little boy by the arm and drags him, kicking, into Room 411. The tag next to the door says āFINN BEEMAN.ā Itās printed in block letters with a blue marker, like maybe the kid wrote it himself.
I look over my shoulder, and the nurse points toward the doorway, her mouth tight as Shawnās sobs echo down the hall. I draw in a long breath, dread curling in my stomach. Iām stuckāI already messed up with this dad, and trying to talk to him again so soon is risky at best. But the nurse is going to tell my supervisorāand worse, all the other nurses and docs on this unitāif I donāt at least attempt to fix this.Ā
So I do the thing that scares me most and head for Finnās room.
Lying in the bed is a little guy who doesnāt look much older than Shawn. Finnās got a red bandana tied over his bald head, and his sallow skin is lit up by the screen heās holding a few inches from his face. His brother is huddled in the corner, wailing, and his dad is on the plastic recliner chair, his head in his hands. And I think I get it: Shawn wanted a turn, Finn didnāt want to give up the Gameboy, and Dad feels too guilty to say ānoā to his sick child. As I open my mouth to speak, Mr. Beemanās head jerks up. āI told you I didnāt want to talk to you.ā
āI understand, but I hoped we couldāā
āGet out!ā he booms, standing up suddenly.Ā
I take a stumbling step back, and the heel of my pump lands squarely on ⦠someoneās toe. āOw,ā says a deep male voice.Ā
I spin around. Lab coat over a striped button-down. Splattered with coffee. āOmigod,ā I mumble, reaching out like an idiot to wipe brown droplets from the center of my victimās chest, vaguely registering firm muscles beneath the fabric ⦠and the fact that I am smearing hot coffee over them and (once again!) making things worse. āSo sorry.ā I lift my gaze to his face.Ā
Whoa.
Iāve stomped on the most gorgeous guy Iāve ever seen up close. And made him spill his coffee. And wiped it on his neatly pressed shirt. Heās a few inches north of six feet tall, lean and broad-shouldered, with dark blond hair and seriously green eyes. A small, crescent shaped scar just above his angular jawline somehow only makes him hotter.Ā
Heās gazing down at me like heās expecting an explanation.
āUh,ā I say, grasping frantically for words and coming up empty. Because: his mouth. I canāt stop staring at it. āSorry. Youāre very stealthy.ā
His eyebrow arches, then he looks over the top of my head at Mr. Beeman, giving me the chance to read the nametag on his lapel: Aron Lindstrom, M.D.Ā
Oh, crap.
āHey, Greg,ā Dr. Lindstrom says. āGot you a coffee when I was in the cafeteria. Thought you could use it.ā He holds out the cup, now only three-quarters full thanks to my clumsiness, and Mr. Beemanās footsteps clonk as he comes to retrieve it.Ā
āI got something for Shawn, too,ā Dr. Lindstrom says more quietly. āIf you want to give it to him.ā He holds up a small Dunkin Donuts bag. From inside the room, Shawnās sobs fall silent.
I step to the side while Greg Beeman accepts the Munchkins from Dr. Gorgeous.Ā
āThanks, Doc,ā Mr. Beeman says. āTell your nurse to call off the shrinks, ākay?ā He jerks his thumb at me. āIām not crazy.ā
The doctor doesnāt bother to look in my direction as he claps Mr. Beeman on the shoulder. āOf course not. Everything all right now?ā Shawn approaches his father cautiously, a fragile, hopeful smile on his face, and Mr. Beeman chuckles and hands him the bag, like heās relieved that he can offer this kid somethingāand that Shawn is no longer screaming. Dr. Lindstrom smiles at him. āLooks like it.ā
They start to talk about Finn and his IV nutrition, and I back away slowly. The nurse who called for the consult is riveted to her computer screen, and all I want to do is shout, āWhy did you call me down here if all it took was coffee and some Munchkins?ā
I clamp my mouth shut and walk quickly to the back hallway, toward the booth where Iām supposed to enter stuff into the electronic medical record. I have to document that I was here even though I did nothing but demonstrate my incompetence to one and all. Wishing to God that Iād chosen different shoes this morning, I climb awkwardly onto the high stool in front of the computer on the counter. My feet dangle several inches from the floor, and I swing my legs as I type the password and find Finnās chart. I click the tab labeled Psychology/Psychiatry. And then I stare at the screen for who-knows-how-long, my eyes stinging. What am I supposed to write?Ā
Intern accidentally enraged parent during emotional situation that was resolved by hot doctor with donuts.
āCan I get on when youāre done?āĀ
I almost fall off the stool. Dr. Lindstrom is leaning against the wall of the booth with a lazy sort of grace. āSure,ā I say, then clear my throat.
āYouāre new,ā he comments, reading my nametag. āAh. One of the interns. I knew there was another rotation starting.āĀ
āYeah.ā Iām staring at his coffee-stained chest, which is making my insides feel fluttery. So I meet his gaze, which scrambles my thoughtsāright when I need every IQ point I possess. āThe nurse called me down. She thought Mr. Beeman needed some help. But I ⦠then he ā¦ā
I look over at the blank screen. Intern inadvertently trivialized Mr. Beemanās suffering, then stomped on Dr. Lindstromās toes and ruined his shirt. I rub my hands over my skirt and wish I was invisible.Ā
āYouāre upset because he yelled at you,ā Dr. Lindstrom says coolly. āYou need to get over that. These people are going through a lot. Sometimes itās too much. You canāt take it personally, especiallyāā
āThatās not it at all.ā Frustration burns through me as I raise my head. āIām upset because I couldnāt help him. Or that little boy. And thatās what I was supposed to do.ā But all I did was make things harder for them.Ā
All my doubts hit me at once: I donāt belong here. This is one of the most prestigious internships in the country, and one of the hardest rotations on said internship, full of docs known for being total hard asses, and Iām already screwing it up because I canāt think on my feet. Needing to escape, I hop off the chairāand it turns out thinking on my feet is the least of my problems. My heel gets stuck in a rung of the stool and I topple over with a yelp.
My face crashes into Aronās coffee-scented chest, and his steely arms wrap around me, keeping me from sliding to the floor.Ā
āNow Iāve got coffee and lipstick on my shirt. What did I do to deserve this kind of treatment?ā he says, but heās obviously working hard to keep from laughing. He holds me slightly away from him and looks down at his chest. Then at my mouth.
And his gaze stays. Right. There.
My fingers grip his waist, which is ridged with muscle. Aron Lindstrom clearly works out, I think stupidly. He leans over, making sure my right foot is stable on the floor before tugging my left heel from the evil clutches of the stool. His fingers skim over my bare ankle and raise goosebumps. āIāll bet it was a long walk from the Psychology Department in those shoes,ā he comments.
āYouāre not kidding.ā
He chuckles as he straightens up, and as he does, his shoulder brushes my breasts, just a barely-there touch. I gasp, nearly losing my footing again as my nerves send frantic more more more messages zinging through my entire body. I cross my arms over my chest because: nipples. Iām pretty sure he could see them through my shirt if he bothered to look.
His fingers tighten over my biceps, and I glance up at him in time to see something stir in his eyes. Did he bother to look?Ā
āIs your ankle okay?ā he asks. I donāt think Iām imagining the strain in his voice.
āYeah.ā Iām breathless. I want to press my entire body up against his, which would probably not come across as professional.
Ā āMy nameās Aron,ā he says, finally letting me go. āIām one of the fellows.ā Which explains why he only looks a few years older than I am. Heās still finishing up his training.
āIām Nessa. And, er ⦠you know what I am.āĀ
His lips quirk up. āIām not sure I do.āĀ
He takes my place on the stool in front of the computer and types something on the Psychology/Psychiatry page. Then he clicks to the General Medical section and writes something else while I stare at the scar on the left side of his slightly stubbly jaw. Iām imagining what his skin would feel like beneath my fingertipsārough, deliciously warmāwhen he gets up and gestures at the stool again, offering it to me. His gaze slides from my nametag all the way to my face, and I feel it on my skin as it moves, a path of heat that makes me shiver.Ā
Please touch me again. That is my only thought.
He flashes a devastating grin, like he knows. āNice meeting you, Nessa. Iāll send you my dry cleaning bill.āĀ
He walks past me before I can respond. I inhale the crisp, grassy scent of his cologne before turning my attention back to the medical record. My hands shake as I click back to the Psychology section and see:
Intern Cavenaugh assisted Dr. Lindstrom in resolution of family conflict and began an assessment of parent stressors and needs.
āI couldnāt have said it better myself,ā I mutter, closing Finnās record and turning in the direction of Aronās voice. Heās in one of the rooms down the hall, talking to a patient, judging by his gentle tone. I sit for a minute and listen. Heās got a very faint, hard-to-place accent, yet another thing that renders him hotter than can really be considered fair. I clench my fists and tell myself to focus. I canāt spend my Friday evening stalking Dr. Aron Lindstrom through the pediatric cancer ward at The Childrenās Hospital of Philadelphia like a crazed fangirl. I have other things to do, like …
⦠an assessment of parent stressors and needs.
Right. Exactly. I tuck my hair behind my ear only to feel it slide across my cheek yet again as I start walking back toward Finnās room. Iām a few doors away when Mr. Beeman comes out. I can hear Shawn laughing from here. āSounds like you got him settled down,ā I offer, bracing myself for a hostile response.
Instead, Greg Beeman runs a hand through his hair and looks sheepish. āListen, Iām sorry. About earlier, you know.ā
āYou donāt have to apologize. Iām not here to add to your stress, and Iām sorry that I did. It wasnāt my intention.ā I lean forward. āAnd I donāt think youāre crazy. I think youāre extremely strong, to be handling all of this.ā
He gives me a weary smile. āThanks. Sometimes I wonder ā¦ā He looks back into Finnās room and sighs.
āMr. Beeman, can we start over?ā I offer my hand. āIām Nessa Cavenaugh. Iām a doctoral psychology intern, and Iām here to help parents manage under all this stress. You donāt have to talk to me or tell me anything, but I want you to know that if you do think of a way I can help, whether itās talking to your boys or problem-solving or whatever, Iām available, and Iād be honored.ā
He blinks at me, then shakes my hand. His is rough and callused. I wonder what job he had to take a leave from so he could be here. āYou can call me Greg,ā he says. āAnd thanks. Iāll think about it.ā
āIām glad. Take care.ā I head for the exit to the unit, grateful for this one tiny victory. Aron strides around the corner and stops to talk to Mr. Beeman, and I hover near the double doors, mesmerized. While they converse in low tones, Aron smiles, and it lights up his perfect face and shows off his straight, white teeth. Before I look away, he glances up and catches me staring.
His grin grows wider.Ā
I hustle myself off the unit before I forget why I came here in the first place.Ā
But then I practically skip down the wide hospital corridor. Considering the string of humiliations I just experienced, my first trip to the oncology unit was a little bit awesome. I started to clean up the mess I made with Mr. Beeman, and I met one of the fearsome onco docs, who miraculously didnāt seem to hate me. In fact, he seemed to like me, despite the fact that I faceplanted on his shirt. He was kind. But also really scary ⦠in an Iāll-steal-your-heart-if-you-let-me kind of way. I canāt afford to let that happen.Ā
I bite my lip as my dadās mantra runs through my mind before I can suppress it.
Ā Always do the thing that scares you.Ā
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About Sarah Fine
SARAH FINE is the author of several books for teens, including Of Metal and Wishes (McElderry/Simon & Schuster) and its sequel, Of Dreams and Rust, the bestselling Guards of the Shadowlands YA urban fantasy series (Skyscape/Amazon Childrenās Publishing), and The Impostor Queen (McElderry, January 2016).
She is also the co-author (with Walter Jury) of two YA sci-fi thrillers published by Putnam/Penguin: Scan and its sequel Burn. Her bestselling adult urban fantasy romance series, Servants of Fate, includes Marked, Claimed, and Fated, and was published by 47North in 2015, and her second adult UF series āReliquary (and its sequels Splinter and Mosaic) was published 2016. When sheās not writing, sheās psychologizing. Sometimes she does both at the same time. The results are unpredictable.
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